12 years

Its 12 long years since the first jitters

I’ve had when a boy held my hand

As sharply as I recall the letters

Of his name, it’s like time’s got a magic wand.

They say the first time is worth it

Always stays etched in ones heart

I guess my brain cant erase this bit

It’s etched into the memory like some art.

At times I drift off and recall the moments

They were so blissful and full of love

And mixed with so many other components

Simplicity just follows the above.

I could still go so weak in the knees

If I see him and his charming smile

It’s like the roots of the ancient trees

We go back together every mile.

Through the good and bad, up and down

We’ve been there and done that, almost

We’re the rebels with the dainty crown

We’ll probably stay the same even as ghosts.

12 years and still powering through

There are some things I wish I had done

I dont think there’ll ever be an end to you

It’s always going to be where we first begun.

-Adelene Dsilva (Coelho)

Strangers in the room

Do we know each other at all ?

I’m starting to doubt it now

‘Cause I am the one taking the fall,

When in reality we both took the vow.

I look towards you in earnest hope

Trying to catch your gaze,

But my mind screams of no scope

No way to get out of this maze.

You dont connect to mind heart anymore

I dont see your emotion towards me

I want to walk out of the damn door

I don’t know why I’m tied down to thee.

We dont speak at all these days

Not even feel the presence there

My eyes wonder but tongue fails to praise

The unending sorrow that dwells everywhere.

I have a responsibility to our daughter

I cannot allow myself to let her down

But is fair to swim in drowning water

And make her wear my shallow crown?

Unhappy is the milestone we have reached

And this goal was never listed in our vows

This distance now cannot be breached

We’re strangers in the same room as love allows.

-Adelene Dsilva (Coelho)

To my Daughter – Beth

You’re as beautiful as a pearl

You’re the best I ever could get

You’re the perfect flower unfurl

You’re my blessing met.

I need you to be as brave as you can be

To face all difficulties with a smile

Remember nothing is beyond thee,

Lord almighty to help you walk each mile.

Never think too little of yourself

Always know you are precious than everything

Never determine your life on the shelf

Hold your world on a shiny string.

No one can ever judge you around

And no one can decide who you want to be

As long as you’re right, stand your ground

Be humble and let your spirit free.

Dont ever look down on the poor

And dont bow down to the rich

Leave their soul happier than before

It doesn’t matter you encounter which.

Lastly, you need to stand strong and stand tall

Keep your head up in the clouds,

Remember to never take a wrongful call

And always know I’ll be your fairy in every crowd.

-Adelene Dsilva (Coelho)

To the man I have loved before

It is the best feeling in the world

To know I wake up beside you every day

The morning dew is dim and pearled

It should remain this way, I pray.

When you don’t look at me as I speak

Or even listen to what I say

The joy of life is gibberish like Greek

I know someday your heart will stay.

Looking at the little girl we made

I secretly wish she grows up to be like you

Like a pearl that is now a silver blade

Charming and sharp, and admirable too.

If it weren’t for you, I’d be a wreck

Lost some place that had no way back

Playing without an ace in the deck

You rescued my entire pack.

I feel the need to grab your attention

The desire to see you watch me sway

Do I really have to mention

I see your eyes just linger away.

I have asked for a little more love

And a little more is all I do for you

I could change my raven heart to a dove

If you give me some more of you.

-Adelene Dsilva (Coelho)


In a glance every soul beholds,

One word that has so much meaning,

The strength and the weakness it holds,

You’ll think you’re dreaming.

It can determine your supremacy,

It can depict your ardour,

If you ride this beast of ecstasy,

It can inflict a nervous disorder.

You should understand it’s depth

Or one day you could possibly drown

Defeated thus losing all your breath

Foregoing your soul and pulling yourself down.

The muscle your body shows

The intensity your brain depicts

Doesn’t matter if great sweetness flows

Power is a drug attracting more addicts.

If it’s not subtle and you’re not kind,

You’re pretty much the loser in it all,

If it’s not fortitude, then you’re blind,

You cost your own spirit to take the fall.

The demeanour you portray is your true self

Greatness lies only within,

Sad, many of you park it on the shelf,

The power lies underneath your skin.

-Adelene Coelho

Beth Belize Dsilva

As the clock struck 13:13 hours,

A sweet cry was heard by me,

The lords blessing showers,

A daughter I could see.

Her glimpse was so overwhelming,

I burst into a helpless cry,

Not sure if I were dreaming,

Her voice gave me the softest sigh.

She looked just like her dad,

I couldn’t be more happy,

I knew that he’d be so glad,

He’s gonna be her English Chappie!

They laid her down onto my chest,

She cried and brushed her cheek to mine,

That feeling is just the best,

It’s love’s unforced design.

I saw the excitement in her dads eyes,

When they gave him our baby girl,

His joy touched a thousand skies,

She is his perfect pearl.

I saw our family fit in just right,

Nothing could slide in between now,

We had our own shining light,

Beth Belize Dsilva, y’all, take a bow!

-Adelene Coelho

Baby Jitters

I remember the first time we had a glimpse of you,

Confused, we couldn’t understand a thing,

The doctor explained everything in our view,

Clueless as could be, we were in a joyous sing!

As I felt you grow inside me each day,

I still couldn’t make believe your presence much,

I see you through God’s eyes as I pray,

The delight in my voice is such.

And one day we could see you there,

Snuggled up in a corner as cosy as can be,

A pose your daddy and you clearly share,

Even the doctor had a tough time to see.

When you said hi and your palm reached up,

Teary eyed we smiled and laughed,

Either you meant ‘stop it’ or ‘what’s up’,

That palm was immediately photographed!

We can feel you wriggle and move around,

It’s when we know you like what we eat,

It’s your way of showing us cheerful sound,

That times daddy can even hear your heartbeat.

It’s the jitters that we feel all day along,

And the excitement, it only grows,

Each day your presence gets strong,

Our love in every stream flows.

-Adelene Coelho